Finally...2012 is here!

I see that I haven’t written in a while.  Our life has been crazy and I expect it is going to stay that way for a while.

Thank you for your prayers.  We made it through the holiday season.  We had a wonderful time with our family and we tried not to focus on what we were missing out on by not having JP yet.  We received a wonderful gift right before Christmas…a video of our little boy.  It was great to finally hear his voice and see how he acted.  Brian watches the video almost every day.  I have found that when I watch it I get very anxious.  So I watch it about once a week.  Oh and Christmas was on Sunday!  How awesome was that?  I loved that we got to spend that morning worshiping with our church family and celebrating the birth of our Savior!

New Years was different.  It didn’t start off different.  We went to the West home like we usually do to pig out and play games.  We had so much fun.  When the clock struck midnight I felt relief.  I exhaled and felt so happy that 2011 was over.  Don’t get me wrong…2011 was a great year and without it we wouldn’t be at this spot today.  Many things happened last year like the fact that we actually got a referral and we jumped into this journey full speed.  But the waiting!!  Ugh…the waiting.  The WORST part about this whole process.  I guess I finally felt that the waiting was over.  It is 2012 and we WILL have our boy this year!  I was very happy…for a few days.

These past few weeks have been the worst.  I have never been on this type of emotional roller coaster in my life.  It is coming.  I can feel it in my bones.  HUGE CHANGE!  One day I’m excited and the next day I’m scared to death.  I’m trying to prepare for our trip, trying to prepare my house, and trying to prepare my heart.  Sometimes I’m so overwhelmed that I can’t even move.  EVERY aspect of my life is about to change.  I guess every expectant mother goes through these emotions.  My life is about to look completely different!  I prayed for this change and I want this change.  Now that it is coming at me…fast…I’m kind of freaking out.  Anxious and worried to be more exact!  Yes, I know the verse:

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God, and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

Philippians 4:6-7

That is quickly becoming one of my verses for this year.  The other one is:

 “Commit to the Lord whatever you do and your plans will succeed.” 

Proverbs 16:3

I’m trying to meditate daily on these two verses.  It is hard.  Some days I don’t even know what I’m feeling.  And if I’m confused…think about how confused B is with my emotions (he is requesting prayerJ)!! 

Ok…enough of that. 

I mentioned a while back that I had found some blogs of adoptive families that I was reading.  Well, I am now a full on blog stalker!  There are so many blogs out there with stories of adoptive families.  I love almost all of them.  The first thing I do when I get home and the last thing I do before I go to bed is check all of the blogs.  Some people are waiting, some people are picking up their child now, and some are just living the life.  They have really helped me a lot.  The adoption community is awesome!  We have a support group here and I love them just as much.  We get together once a quarter and it is so great to fellowship with them and all the kids.  A couple of the families have adopted from the same orphanage and they have been a wealth of information.  I have added the adoption blogs (there are many other blogs I follow as well but did not include) that I follow to our page.  Check them out! 

Now for the update.  We finally hit the 6 week mark this week.  Our agency said that we would receive the HCO in 6 to 10 weeks.  So it really could be any day now that we get the call to go get him.  I have no idea what I’m going to be like when we get that call!  Will I be excited or too nervous to do anything?  We shall see.  I have a feeling I will go into hyper mode and be absolutely crazy!!

OH!!  I almost forgot.  They told us they told him he has a mom and dad.  They gave him our album and our video.  We received pictures of him looking at both and it was pretty amazing.

Yes, the waiting is horrible.  But the things we have already experienced on this journey have greatly outweighed that.  I'm pretty sure the end result will be amazing too!   

 
Hopefully the next post I make will be to tell you we are leaving for HK!!!

Katie