Waiting...

Last week was hard.  It all started on Saturday, July 16^th.  I went to see Harry Potter with two of my closest  friends Susan and Elaine…my faux sisters as I call them.  Afterwards we went to Starbucks and I gave them the reports from Jonah’s speech therapist.  They looked over them and translated the translation of the reports.  They were in English but some things don’t translate correctly and even if they did, I don’t know all the terms.  Thankfully God has given me some very talented and knowledgeable friends.  Susan is a speech therapist and Elaine is a teacher.  Between the two of them they were able to look at the reports and tell me what they mean.  The two reports that they looked at were about six months apart.  The first one had me a little concerned.  It said he was somewhat behind.  He was not expressing himself very well and (the part that broke my heart) he was playing parallel to other children and not with them.  Then they went to the next report and he had shown great improvement.  He was playing with the other kids.  He was on track with almost all of his speech and the places he was behind in are not that big of a concern.  I was so thankful for my friends when I left…love them!

As soon as I got in the car I started getting emotional.  It was something about hearing my friends talk about him like they knew him that made him feel more a part of my life.  It felt great!  Then I started thinking about Harry Potter.  I told B that I was not going to put this part in the blog because I feel like a complete dork…but here goes!  I have always loved fantasy.  The unbelievable.  The stories.  LOVE IT ALL!  Well I was thinking about the story of Harry Potter and how he was called “The boy who lived!”  It hit me…this little boy…my little boy…is the boy who lived!!!  There are many, many reasons why he should not even be alive.  I will have to talk about all of them in another post.  He has overcome all odds.  And yet here he is and God is giving him to me!  I was so overcome with emotion.  God has given me this wonderful story.  Better than fantasy movies haha!  Better than anything I could have ever written myself.  I don’t think I have ever felt God’s love like I did at that moment.  I praised Him!  When I got home I was shaking.  It was incredible.

So now to tell you why it was so hard.  I’m done with waiting!  Honestly we have been very blessed in our timeline.  Yes, we waited a LONG time to adopt, but the process has gone fairly quickly…well quicker than others.  I REALLY don’t want to wait any longer and it is killing me.  I told B one night that I was tired of waiting.  He said he understood but it is just not time to go get him yet.  God’s timing is perfect (yes, I tell myself that every day).  He has planned this all so well.

So, Friday the 22^nd came around.  B was talking that morning about how it had been eight weeks since we turned in our paper work to HK.  Oh and we recently  found out that we are waiting on another approval that we didn’t really know we were waiting on.  I emailed our social worker to find out how we could make contact with him and she said not until after we get matching approval.  WHAT?!?!  What is that?  Well the HK adoption office has to get our paper and Jonah’s and “match” us together.  Argh…so we would wait for that.  So back to Friday.  I prayed throughout the day that I would hear from God.  I just wanted something to know that He was there and that He was handling things.  Yes, I know this, but I just wanted Him to show me.  He didn’t have to…He never HAS to…but He DID!!  I was checking my email all day just to see if there was something from our social worker.  I got home from work and right before we went out I checked it one more time.  There it was!  An email!  It did not confirm matching approval.  It just said that the adoption office had no further questions on us.  They are just waiting to get his information.  I started jumping up and down.  B didn’t know what was going on and said “explain yourself!”  Haha!  I heard from God!  What an answer…an immediate answer.  HE IS SO FAITHFUL!!

Recently I was talking to two close friends (God has given me so many great people in my life) about what they thought it meant to wait on the Lord.  One of them, Natalie (Tia as Jonah will call her), said something like this “You wait on the Lord because you know and have faith that He WILL move!”  Wow…so true.  Isn’t it amazing to worship and serve THE LIVING GOD?!!!!

So I will wait. I will wait upon the Lord.  For I know this season of waiting will come to an end.  Time is speeding past us.  God is living and moving.  “Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord!”

Katie